Saturday, October 18, 2008

honest to blog?

Jeepers, has it really been nearly four months since I posted anything.  WOW!  Needless to say, I've been busy.  

I recently moved and am getting settled into my new place.  I have a new roommate who has two furry kitties.  It's a new living environment, but not bad so far.  Not that I expect it to be bad at any point.  We are two single thirtysomething chicks and are very similar in many ways.  Half of our living room is made up of two tables for crafting!  I have been too busy to actually put my side to good use, but my roomies side is getting some use with all our costume preparation in honor of the upcoming holiday.  I get more excited for halloween than I do for any other holiday.  It's so fun to decide on a costume.  The options are endless and you can get as dramatic or simple as possible.

I started a new job in August.  I love it.  It's perfect for me.

I started college on Sept. 22nd.  I have a full course load... writing 121, math 60, computer accounting applications and college survival.... 

So far, I feel overwhelmed with the amount of homework assigned.  I don't think the faculty at my community college understand what it's like to work two jobs and attend night classes.  It's frustrating, but I have faith that I will be able to survive and come out a better person for it.

It's kind of weird.  I've become this person who does homework at lunch and where I used to write notes of things I have to do, I now write algebraic formulas on post its and tuck them into my purse or pocket.  I think I'm hoping math will miraculously absorb in my brain.  So far I've been struggling.  It's not easy.  I expect perfection from everything I do.  I know it's unrealistic, but it's such a hard habit to break.  I'm so hard on myself.  I wish I could change that.  After beating myself up, I feel worse than before.  It's a shame spiral that I get sucked into easily.  Not fun!

So yeah, I've been in a weird phase of my life lately.  I would give almost anything for about 10 more hours in a day.  I have so many things I have to do.  If I'm not getting them done, I'm thinking about doing them....

Anyway, I'm back online, so that's a good thing.  I will try to blog more often.  I will even post some of my cards or scrap pages when I get them completed.